Hate & Headaches

I hate you, and my headache reminds me of how much I hate you. I told myself I needed to leave before I repeated another mistake but I wasn't lucky. Even close. Some person would let me forget my one mistake, and that is frustrating. & yes when the headache fades, and remeat reality, I will forget why I hate. But at the moment I hate you a lot. And there are reasons, maybe they seem crazy and little & worthless, maybe pointless. Maybe I will never be able to process into words how much I hate you. And yes, when the headache fades, I will forget it all. But the thing that is odd, she wouldn't and didn't. In her world there are too many reasons to hate and when my headache is over, those reason will still be there and she will remember them. Maybe, it wasn't me who commanded the world to end, it was just me who remind others that maybe it should end. All I can feel now is that it should again. That everything should come crashing down. And my reason to note command people to again, b/c I love him, accidently, they made out paths cross, and it isn't head over heals, but a goddess who loves her mortals, and says that the pain the feel since the last time I was angry and they jumped on it, they are still suffering, they need not suffer. But my head hurts, and nothing is helping me. Nothing is making this world fall apart. Who needs it standing, if it is causing me this much pain. So, is he trying make me people off health care so they create their own cures. B/c this is crap, if I had the choice I wouldn't waste my money on this crap. But they lie and promise too much. I will have to drown myself in music, since I can't drown myself for real.