Sometimes, don't you want to blab all your secrets...that is all I am feeling.
If I told everyone I'm a lesbian they won't believe me b/c I have a hubby, but then be scared out of their mind b/c i'm sort of a sexist lesbian. I work with the hottest gals, I feel ugly in compare. Well, I feel like I work in the rich club but I don't belong there. I'd never say I'm fat, kill myself at the gym or over diet. If some brings donuts in, sometime I got to eat them. But everyone is like donuts are evil. If someone brings them in every week, or every day, but once a month. & yes little oranges or veggies are a nice freebie food, too. But, I like food. I like to eat food. There is balance but don't push in the thin chic club.
Maybe their all lesbians and afraid i'd judge them, but sometimes lies drive me up a wall.
My other secret, I can read minds, but not easy. My mind speaks in pictures or ideas. Long version 'you the biggest shitty dork ass'. Mind Translation "someone who is angry at someone, and speaking curse words'. So, it losses details. Also, there is a caveat. You know how when you are guilty or keeping a secret, it isn't in your forefront but it is strong. Well, it's loudest to me. Those thought you don't want in forefront, the ones that becomes your whole you, you avoid them, but they are the whole you & that is the you I see. So, if you are you skirting around keeping secrets, they are shouted at me, and that is so annoying. You don't want to face, so I have to. Damn you!!!.
You know sometimes, actually always, but the world is bigger than you, and sometimes I realize it. It is fucking huge. Sometimes I remember it when I look back at the cool TV shows that where once around and how cool they were. When I hear a song that is just fucking awesome.
I ramble b/c asses took me off medicine for too long, so I see the big fucking picture & sometimes it's fucking awesome & sometimes is fucking annoying.
